I remember praying to the Lord to take me away from a life that was not worthy of God’s forgiveness.
A life of homosexuality, living an already sinful lifestyle coupled with constant strife at work was becoming
unbarable, trying to find the emotional connection I lacked from my parents in a dark world was not helping.
I always felt homosexuality was wrong, there was always this voice trying to guide me away, I had always
felt a supernatural pull to go to church or I was always miraculously around people of God (church going folk) 
I don’t know, but I believe God was alway with me, protecting me, I just wasn’t listening hard enough
this is when I learned that God places people in your life for a reason. . . I always get emotional at this point
because I have never felt accepted or felt there was anyone there for me, which is the reason why it’s hard
for me to open up emotionally to anyone, I have never had that connection with anyone, I have become so
used to trying to do things on my own.
Being home for about 2 years now without work, I feel God had tought me some things.
Everything I have been through in my life I now feel they have been sorta learning experiences
out of all of my life experiences, I feel I have become emotionally understanding of others,
when I know that someone’s going through some of the thing I have been through, I feel
this deep compassion, to help or at least express to them that I understand, and try to be there
for them, emotional wounds take time and patience, those you don’t get over so easily.
People can talk a whole lot, but being there for the person is what counts, taking the time.
Simply saying, you need to get over it, is very much easier said than done, sometimes you
have to put yourself in the other persons shoes
I know all this is mushy feel stuff coming from a guy, lol
But it’s who I am, I have alway been super sensitive to others emotions, sometimes it gets on my nerves, lol
I feel as though I can’t be happy if the other person isn’t, but I has to be genuine
or if I feel someone is being left out or treated unfairly
To Be Continued. . .
